So I guess it's been long enough with out an update. I've been really in demand recently (she says with a hint of sarcasm). Umm... So Little Women closed. Which was sort of bittersweet. I was really proud of that show after all of the crap we put it through, and I was really proud of what our girls had accomplished. And as for it possibly being my last time on that stage, I think I'm okay with that. We'll see.

Been kind of vegging recently. I really need to get back into the swing of doing things. I told myself I'd finish my theatre work tonight, as well as my position papers for Model UN and my chem... but I can't really see that happening. There's a to-do list that I paper clipped to my printer. I wrote it on looseleaf in jumbo sharpie - just to give you a good mental image. Now imagine that the first item is checked off in ballpoint pen, the eleventh is crossed out, and the thirteenth is checked off. I've been very productive. Thankfully, I don't go back until Monday. (At this point, half of you have stopped reading so that you can go make an angry comment about that.)

I think I'm ready to go back to school. I mean, like I will be when I get my work done. Although I guess I could use a few more days of sleeping in. Mow.

Love, Em

• I've applied to college! So far I'm done with 1/2 of my early interviews. The other's in two weeks.
• School doesn't suck too badly. I'm done with my senior assembly. My grades are pretty alright. First trimester's almost over!
• I've been really tired lately. I think I may be overextending myself (shocker).
  
• I'm Aunt March in Little Women. That's December 6,7,8. You may want to come see it.

This whole school thing is really getting in the way of my xanga time. And my life.

That's all really.

Maybe if I'd updated right when I got back from my trip I'd have some sage advice. But I can't remember it. I'm swimming in a sea of school stuff, so it's difficult to weed everything out.

I've got my school supplies. I'm good in that department. I need to pick my senior portait and my quote for that page. Not that I need to have one, but I want one. I need to do my summer homework for Chem and Calc. I need to edit the bylaws for RepCo. I need to do a lot of things.

But one thing keeps sticking out to me. Little Women. My senior musical. I REALLY want Jo. Like, sometimes it's not funny. I mean, Marmee and Meg, also great parts, but Jo's just so much more... she's the kind of part you just kind of dig your heels into and roll up your sleeves and get to work. And all the same, even though I've got one or two solid monologues up my sleeves, and more than a few solid audition songs (I'm down between "Say the Word," "Christmas Lullaby," and "Lying There") I still just have this feeling that no matter how much I want it and no matter how hard I work for it, I won't get it. Which is probably the most frustrating feeling in the world. Nonetheless, kiddies, I can't let that get me down. Because when you truly want something, you have to go for it with all you've got. Use all your tricky ploys and anything else you've got lying up your sleeve (magic, if it happens to be the case) and if it doesn't pan out, well, it wasn't meant to be. But certainly not from lack of effort on your part. So, you know, in addition to SAT work and college apps, I've got audition prep. But I'm thinking somehow it's all going to be worth it.

Now if you'll excuse me, I have to go choose a senior portrait... as my mother so kindly reminded me. Mumble.

- Em